right person, wrong time.
but yet at the same time i’m extremely afraid that i’m going to be one of those people that die alone… and it freaks me out completely.
i literally can’t wait to be in a hopeless romantic relationship, the kind you see in movies. the one where the guy literally can’t live without the girl and does all these wonderful things for her just to show he really cares. i can’t wait to love someone with everything i’ve got and be loved like that in return. and i would rather wait 5 years for that then go through these stupid, meaningless “flings” just to fill the void in my heart. but i really hope i find it soon. i want to show someone how amazing i can be. and they won’t judge me or think of me as weird. they will cherish everything about me and love my little quirks. but i guess all i can do right now is dream.
what’s the point of constantly putting yourself out there when you get hurt every single time..
i just want things to go back to how they were 3 years ago, before everything got complicated and took a turn for the worst. when we were actual best friends. and when i knew you always had my back. im so tired of waiting and living my life around you and what you’re doing. this is so pathetic, i can’t believe i feel like this. i just cant do it anymore. and maybe its my fault. maybe i cant hide my feelings and that makes me weak. but whatever. i dont even care. im mentally physically and emotionally exhausted over you.
